Blooming Hearts

It’s no secret that I am a lover of plants. Growing up I preferred to spend my time in the trees instead of on the earth below, reading and writing until the mosquitoes would pressure me back indoors. My family used to buy me empty hardcover books that I would spend hours writing stories in, adding my own illustrations and fine details. All whilst leaning back in my tree, not a care in the world and so many words to share. I’ve always felt like Alice in Wonderland in that way. Curious and yet, content.

Now into adulthood, even though I spend less time in trees and more time on the ground, what hasn’t changed is the fact that I am always writing and I love being surrounded by green! There is so much to love about having your own plants. The variety, the choices, the air quality, finding new nurseries to go to. It’s all so exciting and fun! Truly though, I think the most rewarding part for me has got to be how close it makes me feel to Jesus. I have a passionate heart and a vibrant thirst for life, and sometimes this creates a lack of patience for the slow lane. Truth is, I don’t have a whole ton of patience at all, and if you’ve had plants you know how patient you have to be sometimes before you can see any difference in those babies. But then somehow and out of nowhere, that changes. One seemingly random morning after you’ve grabbed your cup of coffee and wiped the sleep from your eyes you look over and see a flower start to bloom or a bud start to sprout and your heart kind of skips a beat; whatever else is going on kind of halts. It’s magic. Well, no, it’s not magic. But it is Jesus.

I’ve been praying the past few months for God to meet me; to teach my impatient heart rest, to teach me to see the beauty of this earth as He does, not in a measurement of time but in a measurement of awe alone. And while I’ve been planting for a while, I have been paying more attention lately to the actual actions that are caring for each plant. Taking the time to water them and make sure each one is positioned just right for the sun to reach them with ease. I take care of my plants, and eventually they bloom. They grow. It’s not about the time it takes or how long it’s been or what I’m doing wrong. It is neither fast nor slow. It just is. And even though I might not see it or feel it, they’re growing. And that is beautiful.

I know I’ve said this before, but I love having plants because they remind me that I’m growing as well. Just like Jesus is expanding their roots, pushing them to grow and reach for the sky, aiding them in their bloom when the timing is just right. And not my just right, but His just right. Jesus is doing the same in me. And I may not feel it, and I may not notice it, but it’s happening. I am always growing. And He waters me, and places me just right in the sun, and He watches me grow. Just as He does everyone and everything else. When you trust in the Lord it doesn’t matter how fast or how slow things are happening. Because it is all happening in His time, which is due time. All you need to do is be willing to grow. It’s almost like you can hear God whispering, “now watch as you bloom”.

Jesus already knows what you’re struggling with. He knows what keeps you up at night, what is causing those knots in your stomach, and ultimately what is keeping you from living the life He has planned for you. Fear is not of the Spirit. Fear and anxiety start from whispers of the enemy, and work to distract your heart from Jesus. But Christ is well aware of exactly what you’re going through and everything that is storming in your heart. And He’s catching your tears. He’s crying with you. He is both the comfort and the peace. With Jesus, you don’t have to worry anymore. You don’t have to rush, you don’t have to stress. God only places before you what He knows you can handle. He doesn’t promise a life without struggle but He promises a way through the struggle. So please, friends, lean into Him. When you are scared, pray. When you are weak, listen. Allow yourself to be loved and cherished by the one who created you, by the one who knows you. Jesus is waiting for you to give Him your aches, your fears, your pain. To give up the things you were never meant to endure or experience. Allow the Holy Spirit to ignite your growth and live the life He has planned for you.
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xo

 Five verses on growth & trusting Jesus:

Isaiah 40:8

"The grass withers and the flowers fade, but the word of the Lord stands forever.

Psalm 119:114

"You're m place of quiet retreat, I wait for your word to renew me."

Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding.

In all your ways acknowledge Him

and He shall direct your paths."

2 Kings 20:5

"I have heard your prayer; I have seen your tears.

Behold,

I will heal you."

1 Corinthians 3:7

"So neither the one who plants  

nor the one who waters is anything,

but only God, who makes things grow."